• Jealousy
• Insecurity
• Loneliness 

this message is directed to one person only. 
I don’t know if she will read this, I don’t know if she will ever figure out that this post is specifically for her. 

Either way, I’ll just hope she reads this and feels, i don’t know..a little bit better? This person has no real friendship with me, she’s way closer with my sister but still we enjoy talking when it happens. Or atleast I do.

Hey, cheer up. It’s going to be OK. Trust me. Everything in life is temporary, happiness is temporary, and so is sadness. Everyone has problems in life, or it’s not life. Trust me, this feeling will pass. One year from now, you are NOT going to feel this way, feel this guilty feeling, feel ashamed to face your parents, to face the community, to even get out of the house. You know why? because you are going to go to a post-secondary school..it honestly doesn’t matter WHERE. and your gonna prove yourself. Your gonna work hard and accomplish huge successes that your parents ARE gonna be proud of. Your gonna be the proof of the phrase ” hard work pays off” I’m gonna see you in this three lettered post secondary school in just a short span of time and you are going to to have a bright future. You are going to succeed. You are going to believe in the positivity. I know you don’t really want to move right now, I know you won’t feel like doing anything, and I know you want to torture yourself by listening to sad songs and trapping yourself in your room. but I want to tell you to stop. Get your books out. And smile while you’re doing it.  Study. for one hour, or two. Then enjoy the rest of the day doing something you like. Don’t be ashamed, because soon you are going to prove them all. I believe in you. Trust yourself. Work so hard, that in one year, you will be proud of your work. Don’t let yourself ever be in the position where you say to yourself ” I wish i had worked a little bit harder”. No. From this moment, to two years from now you are gonna give it all you got. You ARE going to get into that three lettered school that honestly doesn’t mean anything. But if it means that getting into that school is the only way you can fully feel happy, you can get it. I can feel it. You can. Just work hard. DO NOT. DO NOT LET YOURSELF say ” I wish I had tried harder” The damage is done. Nothing you say or do can change it, so why not just be positive about it? embrace it. There are soo many new possibilities and friendships out there. I can only see the best for you. I know im two years younger, but I can already feel the pressure haha. Let’s both prove ourselves. Lets both attend this three lettered school at the same time. And at that time I’m gonna smile, remember this post, and I’m gonna think to myself”I knew she could”. And i believe in you. Just start believing in yourself. And work hard and play hard. 

Good luck to you and your future. ALL IS WEEEEELLLLLL. :) 

acire-dork:

You know what hurts the most ?

Reminiscing how we were from the beginning, how it all changed and how we got to this point . Isn’t it funny how we were two people that were so sprung for each other, we were full of many smiles,laughs and butterflies . Then all of a sudden everything changed, and we reached this point where we can’t even last a day without fighting and arguing, we can’t even have a decent phone call without one of us hanging up . So one question, when did our smiles,laughs and butterflies turn into fights, arguments and hatred for one another ?